Every one in their life will have their turn to be lonely. Have you been anytime? What is loneliness? When will it hit you? Do you ever felt lonely even when you have people around? what do you really mean loneliness is? Is it has a physical attribute? Or is it only a mental posture?
So lots of questions......have any one ever felt really lonely in your normal life? Please help me. The loneliness to the extend of filling the whole life....the void filling the void......
Hmmm...I just got the one of entry level of loneliness. So cool how do I feel? I am totally filled without any substance, ha not the physical but the mental space. My mind doesn't seem to think. It seems fluctuate or the correct word could be wandering. It wanders all the space but full of darkness. All it leaves to me is one big space without any constructive usage.
I am wondering, is there a sync between the mind and body? Why should I suffer, when my mind doesn't cooperate. Why should I be wandering without any constructive usage of the whole life. What if I feel lonely the whole life. Why should I feel lonely the whole life? What is so imperative that has has caused me to be lonely. Is is the physical loneliness? No. Haaa...now I understand I should dig myself inside and do the soul searching for WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.
So here we go for the soul searching....why am I lonely? And how do I feel when I feel lonely? Hey I feeling depressed when I am feeling lonely. Is that all? No. I feel my mind blocked. I feel my brain as well blocked. I feel my head heavier than my whole body. I feel my head paining as the sensitivity of the weight of the heavier head could not be withheld by the normal abysmal physical self.
Hey what is that I am trying? Oh thats a good idea. The head will be heavier only when I stand, so with my head on the mat I lie down. I lie down for the eternal years as I have to lie down for the eternal years to come out of the loneliness which will continue for the eternal years.
So where is the link? Loneliness leading to depression, depression leading to pain. Or it can be vice versa also.
Oh this is utter pain, pitch black pain ad nothing else. When is this pain going to stop. Even if I lie down for tackling the weight of the head, how much time can I. Should I spend the whole life lying down and still survive in the lonely life without anything else but pain.
Where I am getting to? What is the solution? There are a lot of explanations and no solutions. Come on.....come out... break the nerves....break the pain....break the loneliness. The heaven waits for you break the knot...break the pain.
Helluva confusion and only adding to the pain and adding to the loneliness. So why should I suffer to search a soul which is not to be found. Hell leave it. Let the pain live longer,let the loneliness prevail the whole life, let the darkness prevail the whole life. Let the whole life be peaceful in the hermit. Let the mind be peacful...let the mind be void...let the body be light...let the head be lighter. Let the soul search its own destiny....Let you be the destiny's child....let you be floating in the air.....void....void and void only be present.....let the void be present to rule the darkness. What is that tiny light; and oh my darkness please don't leave. Please dont go oh darkness please dont go. Oh my loneliness please dont go.
SHIT AFTER A LAZY DAY HOW DIFFICULT IT IS TO GET THE SLEEP IN THE NIGHT. SLEEPLESS NIGHT COUPLED WITH THE HEAD ACHE HAS MADE ME CRAZY. I HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING TO GET SLEEP, AND ENDED WONDERING WHEN THE HEAD ACHE HAS GONE AND HOW EARLY MY HEAVENLY NIGHT HAS COME TO END....................ANOTHER BORING DAY AHEAD................................................................
